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Four years ago, Amanda Stockton was forced to play a serial killer’s twisted game of chance. Since then, she has retreated from the world, bearing the scar from her ordeal and the burden of a terrible secret. But when another woman is found dead, clutching a long-stemmed red rose, Amanda knows she can hide no longer. If there were any other way, Chief Logan Richards wouldFour years ago, Amanda Stockton was forced to play a serial killer’s twisted game of chance. Since then, she has retreated from the world, bearing the scar from her ordeal and the burden of a terrible secret. But when another woman is found dead, clutching a long-stemmed red rose, Amanda knows she can hide no longer. If there were any other way, Chief Logan Richards would never ask the only surviving victim for help. But it’s clear this killer will not be stopped and Amanda is the only link. Torn between catching a madman and winning the trust of the woman he’s come to love, Logan is caught in a dangerous game with Amanda. And there’s no guarantee they’ll come out on top....

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  • Anne OK
    2019-03-27 18:04

    (Read for HEAC June 2012 Over-In-A-Flash Challenge)Lena Diaz is a new to me author, whose romantic suspense debut "He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not" was a big hit with me. The author took her time developing the characters, as well as the romance side of the coin. There was an equal balance between the solid and strong suspense and the building relationship between the leading characters. An excellent secondary cast points the way to the next installment. This story contains dark, gritty, and gruesome crimes. The female lead is scarred deeply and emotionally. Coming to her rescue, of course, is our hero, who is fighting battles from his past. Together they slowly work towards resolving current and past traumas, while moving towards a future together. The past is not overdone nor does it overshadow the here and now -- but clearly explains the characterizations. The author's writing is clear, concise and to the point. I read alot of romantic suspense & favor it more than any other -- and this one hooked me fast and held onto me without a slip-up. I'm going to immediately follow up with her second in the series "Simon Says Die." For romantic suspense lovers, this is definitely one you want to check out.

  • Mo
    2019-03-29 18:52

    I really don't know what to say about this one. Yes, I finished it but I really did not care for the characters. He was feeling guilty about what happened in the past. She was feeling guilty about what happened in the past.I've said it before, Romantic Suspense has to be really GOOD for me to love it. The Queen of RS is Ms Sandra Brown and after having read her recent books, I am spoiled. Sorry RS authors but that's just the way I feel.I may read more from this author ... I think you can tell from my review that this one was a bit of a bummer for me.

  • PaigeBookdragon
    2019-03-23 16:38

    This probably isn't for me.I like the plot, despite being overly used in a romantic suspense genre but I can't really empathize and feel the characters. There's also the lack of gore that I want in my crime books (or maybe the gory scenes in this book doesn't affect me). The author's way of writing is simple and it's kind good but I'm still debating whether I should read more of her books or not..

  • Lauren
    2019-03-26 16:00

    He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not3 StarsFour years after her harrowing ordeal at the hands of a serial killer, Amanda Stockton has changed her name and is finally getting on with her life. But now the monster who played his deadly game with her has struck again and Police Chief Logan Richards is convinced that Amanda knows something that can help catch a madman. Unfortunately, the killer thinks so too...An intriguing premise and a solid beginning. Unfortunately, the story and the romance lose momentum toward the end.This is one of those rare cases where the characters are overdeveloped and the details of their lives are repeated over and over ad nauseam. How many times do we have to hear of the mistake that led Logan to leave town, or about the sick game the killer played with Amanda - a game that is never fully explained nor is how the heck she got away from him?Amanda and Logan’s initial chemistry is strong, but ultimately fizzles toward to end and the last chapter or so actually undermine the romance. Added to this is the unrealistic nature of their relationship. Would a detective really risk his case by becoming involved with a witness, not to mention moving her into his home?The resolution to the case is also problematic as the killer is not only obvious, but his motivation is inexplicable - (view spoiler)[It would have been more believable if Riley’s brother had been the killer. (hide spoiler)].All in all, not sure that this one is worth the effort.

  • Cindy ~ SnS Reviews
    2019-03-30 12:00

    Book opens with the killer posing his latest victim in the park. She is covered with stab wounds on her abdomen and extremities and deep cut on her face from temple to jaw. He puts a single red rose in her hand with just one thorn left on the rose. Police Chief Logan Richards grew up in Shadow Falls and was a beat cop who made a rookie mistake that let a killer go free. To punish himself he moved to New York City and became a detective in one of the roughest precincts. Many years later after his marriage failed he came back to Shadow Falls and took the Police Chief position. He still feels an enormous amount of guilt for that rookie mistake. After realizing that this latest murder is the same as the ones that happened 4 years ago he calls in the FBI. He also realizes that the one survivor from those killings years ago could now be in danger. Four years ago, Amanda Stockton along with her best friend was abducted and forced to play a sick version of he love me, he love me not – the killers version is the pluck the thorns from a rose saying he kills me, he kills me not. She got away from the killer but not before he carved her body and face and killed her friend. Since then she retreated from the world to scared to be around people and also embarrassed for other to see the scar on her face. But when she hears on the news that another woman has been found dead, and a long-stemmed red rose was in her hands, she knows the killer is back. The author pretty much gives us a big clue as to who the killer is right off the bat but that didn’t make the story any less suspenseful. Amanda has the usual hang ups you would expect from a woman who had been abducted and tortured and having to watch as her friend is killed. She is very leery of Logan and FBI Special Agent Pierce Buchanan (who is the hero in the next book along with Logan’s sister who we also meet in this book). At first she wants nothing to do with helping them but decides it time face her fears and leave her self imposed prison. Logan has his fare share of hang ups too. He feels an extreme need to protect Amanda but misinterprets a lot of her signals pretty much from the beginning to the end due to not being able to let go of guilt from things in the past. Thank goodness Pierce was there to slap him upside his head a few times.

  • Cristina
    2019-04-11 13:45

    4,5 starsFantastic! Well written, super creepy and hot. It kept me interested until the very end. Finally a satisfying and solid romantinc-suspense...

  • Roksana
    2019-04-05 15:48

    The 80% of the book 4/5 stars, the end 2 starsI so wanted to like this book... in addition it had so much potential on the plot and romance parts. It is evident from the start, the author invested in characterisation development; I found Logan very likeable from the very beginning, one that you could feel immediate kindness. I found Amanda very strong and down to earth, needles to say, a lot of vulnerability and soreness accompanied her throughout the book prior to her horrible experience whilst being a victim of a vicious attack. Here, the author tries to convince the reader of the emotional connection between the two and the reader is adoringly drawn to their love development and she made it believable too.[Spoiler]And then the striking point came at the end of the story, when Logan abandoned Amanda at the hospital whilst she was fighting for her life and the reader is rather left with unpleasant feeling and disbelief quite contrary to the idea of Logan loving her profoundly and always putting her safety at his first priority. Additionally, I felt emotionally disturbed of how could he leave her without his support by way of justifying his guilt of blaming himself for her injuries and death of his colleague officer. She declared her love to him and he perfectly new that she had been trough a hell and needed support, but here his guild and pride over blind him and he acted cowardly by leaving her a letter with lies (because he was to scared revealing his feelings to her), quite shock to what I was led to believe by the author. That led me to ultimate disappointment of him, as Amanda did not deserved to be abandon in such circumstances, she could have died at this hospital alone, and even when she recovered, he did not even come to her once... where was his love??? I could not be that easily convinced on that account.What a shame, as this is the only disappointing part, but the rest is sweet.

  • Carey Baldwin
    2019-03-31 17:46

    "Fantastic debut! Drives you forward with urgent story questions. Lots of twists and turns that will keep you guessing until the end."

  • Manda Collins
    2019-03-26 19:41

    Love this! Totally reminds me of Christy Reece or early Linda Howard. Great alpha hero and strong heroine. Can't wait for her next one!

  • Judy & Marianne from Long and Short Reviews
    2019-04-13 13:56

    Originally posted at: http://longandshortreviews.blogspot.c...He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not is absolutely gripping. The novel opened with a chilling account of the serial killer positioning the body of his latest victim. Even more distressing, Ms. Diaz hinted that the killer is someone in law enforcement. I love a good mystery and was hooked instantly. I had to discover the killer’s identity and how he would be caught. Ms. Diaz created a sense of urgency that had me racing through the pages seeking the answers. Ms. Diaz certainly knows her way around a good mystery. The list of suspects was small. I was constantly evaluating and reevaluating several of the secondary characters wondering if their pleasant demeanor was merely a mask hiding a killer. Ms. Diaz left tantalizing clues throughout the story, and I was able to piece some of them together. However, I can honestly say I was surprised when the last piece of the puzzle clicked into place. Amanda is easily one of the strongest heroines I’ve had the pleasure of reading about. After facing the serial killer years ago, Amanda’s physical injuries have healed, but her emotional and mental wounds are still bleeding. I admire the courage it took for her to agree to help the police. As if facing the nemesis of her past wasn’t enough, Amanda also finds herself falling in love with Logan. Ms. Diaz did an excellent job of depicting Amanda’s desire for Logan as well as her fear of being vulnerable. As Amanda and Logan explore their feelings for each other, it was a pleasure watching Amanda’s wounds begin to heal. Logan is the perfect hero for Amanda. He’s strong, caring, protective, and loyal. Despite his tough exterior, Logan has some scars of his own. He made a terrible mistake when he was a rookie cop that still haunts him. Logan is determined to never make a mistake on the job again. His drive is certainly admirable, but his single minded focus blinds him to the simple pleasures in life, including Amanda’s obvious affection for him. Logan and Amanda had some truly tender moments, but they also had some bitter arguments stemming from their stubborn streaks. I found myself wanting to smack both of them at times. Logan and Amanda were talking to each other, but neither was really hearing what the other had to say. The push and pull of their dynamic relationship added an interesting dimension to the story that was every bit as compelling as the mystery Logan was trying to solve. In addition to weaving an excellent mystery and creating well rounded characters, Ms. Diaz also made excellent use of descriptive language. “The sweet music of her screams echoed in his mind as he inhaled the lavender-scented shampoo he‘d selected for her. He sat cross-legged on the carpet of pine needles, stroking her hair, his fingers sliding easily through the silky brown mass he had washed and brushed.” After reading these two sentences, I had goose bumps. The crimes of the serial killer are truly gruesome, and it would have been easy to go over the top with the description of his atrocities. However, Ms. Diaz did a great job of providing just enough detail to make the hair on the back of my neck stand up, but stopped short of revealing so much that I felt sick. It is a fine line that Ms. Diaz walked very well. I’m so glad I had the opportunity to read He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not. The characters are well rounded, the romance is spicy, and the mystery is riveting. I highly recommend He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not to fans of romantic suspense.

  • Tammy
    2019-04-06 17:57

    When I first saw the name of the book it had me interested. I was thinking "Wow, someone has their life in someone's hand with a bit of twist with the game: "He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not". As I began to read this book I could not put it down. I started reading it on Wednesday and had it done by Thursday night. I did not want to put the book down, my kids saw me making their meals with my Kindle in my hand. I was that interested in it. The twist and turns of the book were enough for you not to put it down. When I realized I knew "who-done-it" I was screaming "I knew it! I knew it was that person!" my kids and husband said I was acting crazy. Then in the next breathe they saw me balling my eyes out and was wondering how I could go from so happy to so sad so quickly. Lena had me crying not once but twice and when I say crying I am balling! This is definitely a book that plays with your emotions, get's you into the book like you are there one of the character's playing their part!There are two main character's and a few that play a major role to help Amanda and Chief Logan Richards. I thoroughly enjoyed how Lena developed both of these characters. As we learn about Amanda and the crime that happened to her for years ago, you see a scared young lady that cannot trust anyone, especially a man. You watch her develop into a woman that will no longer be the "victim" and wanting to fight back with everything she has and more. You watch how she struggles to remember the crime that happened to her, so she can help Chief Logan Richards with the new investigations that is going on. She has the guts to be able to emerge herself into the case so that way they can catch the killer that killed her friend and tortured her four years ago. You watch as she goes from a woman who cannot trust anyone to falling in love.Chief Logan Richards is now the chief of police of where he ran away from prior. You watch as he has to fight his own demons of what happened when he was a rookie cop. You see the torture that he has been living all the years because of a mistake. He finds Amanda and wants to help her in her own dark past. You watch as he tries to find the killer that killed four years prior, you watch how he also falls in love.The way that Lena develops this story line is exceptional. She brings twists and turns and keeps you guessing. You will emerge yourself into this book, you will not want to put this book down. Your emotions will be tugged at.

  • BooK-O-Holic
    2019-04-06 13:43

    My Amanda: Logan:So, I really enjoyed this story. Amanda (the main female character) was a strong leading character and although very reserve at times, remained strong and stood by her convictions. A few scenes she acted like a 5yr old, which kind of bothered me but overall she remained strong and lovable character.Logan, what a delicious male. I love the way he was described and definitely had the powerful alpha-vibe going. Although the alpha-vibe does seem the make the male stupid from time to time. Through out the entire story Logan has a well-rounded personality. He is intelligent, patient, sensible and don't forget freaking hot! In the end thought, like in the last 2 chapters, his intelligence level seems to drop significantly One of the things that bothered me was there was never a complete explanation as to how she got away from the killer, only that she did and (kind of a spoiler (view spoiler)[ her friend died in her place(hide spoiler)]). This was one of the reasons I gave it 4 stars instead of 5. The other reason was there was not a whole lot of "hey-hey" going on, understandably, but there was mostly "should I, could I, I want too, but...". About 70% is where you get to the act itself and it was sweet and romantic (I usually like it a little rough, but I don't think it would have worked here)["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • Erin Chicosky
    2019-03-27 12:03

    *MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS*I actually really enjoyed this book. I thought it had a riveting story line, characters that I could believe (mostly), a semi tear jerking conclusion, and was written relatively decently. I did have a hard time believing the 'love at first sight' thing, which apparently happens in all (or most) crime novels. But hey, if it works then it works I guess. I didn't like that Police Chief Richards (Logan) basically ran away after his 'rookie' mistake 10 years prior. I thought that even though it was covered with the fact that he left and went to further his police training so he could become Police Chief or whatever it was kind of lame. Like 'oh hey, I messed up so now I'm just going to run away and let all of this guilt bug me for the rest of my life.' Now, onto the things I did enjoy. I loved the story. Like the actual progression from what happened to Amanda at the beginning of everything to what happens right down to the last page between her and Logan. I loved the crime aspect of it. I thought the 'he kills me, he kills me not' thing was really enjoyable to read and something that I hadn't read before. I loved the characters. Even though they were all sort of over the top (with all the lovey dovey, goo-goo eyes they made at each other) I still enjoyed how they interacted with all of the other characters throughout the story.Definitely glad I put this on my to-read list and then made sure I forced myself to read it instead of reading something I have read 8 times prior.

  • SandraValente
    2019-03-29 17:42

    What a fantastic book! From the very first page this novel is gripping! It starts with the killer arranging the body of his latest victim just so, which makes it all the more eerie. You get a sense that this killer may be a cop or is in law enforcement "gasp!". Every single character worked in this book and their interaction with each other pure magic especially with the leads Logan & Amanda. We love a good romance but when that romance is sometimes halted/interrupted by past mistakes or occurrences and even fear it tends to give a novel that much more character! The author gives us so many things to think about - with the suspense factor on who the killer could be - nail biting. Throughout the whole book you will change your mind on numerous occasions and then go back to who you originally pinpointed as the killer (if you managed to get it right) - wonderful stuff. The romance was awesome and the suspense/mystery in this book excellent. I am so glad I decided to read this book and roped Suzanne into reading it too (but that's what we do to each other) and we gave it our full attention. We are so impressed with Lena Diaz and cannot wait for her next installment. If wishes were books, the next one (for us) would continue with Pierce and Madison. You cannot and should not miss this read - it's worth every second of your time!

  • Mona
    2019-04-22 19:56

    Loved it..Filled with suspense..Love Lena Diaz's books..Not my first. As Amanda Stockton is trying to put her life back together after a terrible, and brutal incident her and her friend went through she holds something inside..When Chief Logan Richards comes to her door, and digs it all up she's horrified to say the least. She wants no part of it. Until another women is murdered. Can she help him out? He won't stay away and just leave her alone. Logan needs Amanda's help. He is holding a deep dark mistake he made a long time ago. The weird thing is he let's her in. He can't concentrate on the case wih the feelings he has for her. He's missing something. The killer is about to strike again. Can Logan catch him before he kills again? He wants to protect Amanda. Things become pretty intense. How will they deal with there feelings for each other? Highly recommended to read..Don't miss the rest in the series..

  • Jerrie Alexander
    2019-04-01 11:58

    If you don't like romantic suspense with strong female characters and heroes you'll fall in love with, this may not be a book for you. All joking aside, I loved this book. It may be the best I've read in a while!Amanda, (Mandy to Logan during tender moments)is well written and believable. And I rooted for Logan from the beginning. He was the perfect mixture of gruff, tender and sexy. This book has the most satisfying ending ever!It's an all nighter, because once you open it to the first page, you're hooked.

  • Cyndi Delia
    2019-04-15 13:06

    My book club chose this book for our March read. Lena Diaz will appeal to fans of and is just as good as Julie Garwood's romantic suspense novels. Although I found the book a bit predictable, it in no way lessened my enjoyment of it. This book made me laugh and get teary eyed. The main characters(Amanda and Logan) are well developed and authentic.This fast paced engaging read will have turning the pages until the very end.

  • Cheryl Alldredge
    2019-03-26 11:52

    Loved this book! One of those rare books that does the suspense and the romance equally well. I can't count how many times I thought I knew who the bad guy was then changed my mind. I loved the hero and the heroine from the beginning and my enjoyment of their romance just grew and grew. Going on my keeper shelf!

  • Vanessa Kelly
    2019-03-26 13:50

    Really creepy villain, a strong yet wounded heroine, and one of my fave types of heroes - the upright lawman. I love that Logan, the hero, was such a straight arrow and a deeply good guy. He even wears a suit and is a total pro, which is a nice break from the barely reformed bad boy cop. This is Lena Diaz's first book, and I predict she has a really good career ahead of her!

  • Karen
    2019-03-23 19:45

    This book was my first by Ms Diaz and it will not be my last. She writes a very fast paced suspense story with likeable characters. I am looking forward to the next story with the hero's sister and FBI agent Pierce. (more to come)

  • Ann Lorz
    2019-04-15 14:57

    I can't say enough about how much I loved this book. Diaz writes the type of books that drags you into the story before you even know it. I loved the characters and they journey to good health, in both mind and body. A must read.

  • em
    2019-04-09 12:06

    ‘He kills me, he kills me not’ is a romantic suspense novel that revolves around the victim Amanda Stockton, a survivor of serial killer who kidnaps two girls at the same time, tortures and hurts them in unimaginable ways and when the three days are over he plays a little game with them. He takes a rose and plucks each thorns whilst repeating “he kills me, he kills me not”, referring to himself as a third person and killing regardless where his chants stop. He has never resurfaced in the same town twice but he makes in exception where he starts hunting again in Amanda’s hometown. The police forces and feds join forces together before he hurts someone again or goes after the only survivor of his wicked game. Police Chief Logan Richards is convinced that Amanda knows something that can help catch a madman and so does the killer.The story is dark, real and gruesome. The plot was well thought out and suspense kept me on the edge throughout the book. You are apprehensive of every character and questioning them at every turn, thinking if they are the killer or not. Trying your very best to the guess the killer; What’s the motive though? For most people, the suspense would be “who’s the killer?” but for me is the question “why is he doing this?” The author did a really good job to shift the suspicions, explain everything and tie the loose ends. The characters were real, complex and experiencing the turmoil of emotions that any human being would when faced with harsh life threatening emotions. Amanda is a head strong character but she is given her own vulnerabilities and showcased them realistically. It’s exactly what a person who has gone through trauma would be like. There was an equal balance between the solid and strong suspense and the building relationship between the leading characters. An excellent secondary cast points the way to the next instalment. The downsides of this novel were: I did have a hard time believing the 'love at first sight' thing, which apparently happens in most crime novels, especially when it’s the victim and the police officer. This eventually boils down to the protective instincts of cops and the traumatised individual’s need to feel safe. The other downside was: we're never privy to any thoughts or emotions from the killer's point of view which would have made it a lot more captivating.

  • TSena_gl
    2019-04-10 15:08

    Takastan aldığım bu kitap hakkında bir fikrim yoktu ama yeni yazarlar da denemek istiyordum; bu sebeple kitap zevkine güvendiğim bir ablama sorarak alıvermiştim.Kitabı çok beğendim. Yazarın anlatımı çok iyidi; hiçbir kafa karışıklığı hissetmeden, her şeyi kolayca anlıyor ve yaşıyor gibi okuyorsun. Yazar kurgusunun da hakkı vermiş; kitapta 'bazı' şeylerin ipuçları vardı ama kabul edip evet, kesin bu bôyle, diyemedim. Tereddütte kalıyor ama tam olarak konuyu da eşeleyemiyorsun. Sonu ise gerçekten çok iyidi; yarı tahmin edilebilir yarı edilemez.Kitapta bir kadının hem güçlü yanını hissediyor hem de korkak yönünü yaşıyorsun. Sevmek, başkalarına çirkin gelebilecek şeyleri öperek güzelleştiren ve bunu derinden hissettirmeye sebep olan harika bir duygudur; Logan ise bunu bize gösteren mükemmel bir karakter.Kitap polisiye, bu sebeple bazı kitaplarda aşk, biraz geri planda tutulur -bu iyi de olur- ama bu kitapta aşkın, polisiye ile orantılı şekilde ilerlemesi kurguyu daha okunası yapmış. Ve kesinlikle kurgu özgündü.Kitabın konusu; psikopat bir katil düşünün, kadınları kaçırıp"Beni öldürecek.""Beni öldürmeyecek" diyerek elindeki dikenleri, gülden söken ve buna göre kadınları öldüren.Hayatta kalan bir kadın olmadı, tek bir kişi hariç; Amanda!Peki katil tekrar Amanda'nın peşindeyse?Polis Logan, bazı nedenlerle kendini suçlu hissederken, diğer taraftanda bu katili yakalamak için savaş vermektedir.Sonuç ise yaralayıcıdır.

  • Ramona
    2019-04-13 19:55

    I would like to thank Ms. Diaz, Harper Collins, and Goodreads for awarding me this novel to read. I really enjoyed the novel. The plot moved along and where I did figure out part of the ending I did not see at all. It was not overly gruesome or sexually explicit It was a great weekend read

  • Donna Kranz
    2019-04-05 19:51

    Excellent read. Starts out a little slow and then literally takes off turning into a very fast paced read. Planning on reading book two in the series next. Great primary and secondary characters.

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  • Leontine
    2019-04-06 14:55

    This was a story where the beginning was full of promise. There was a creepy villain, there were harrowing dangers, a whodunit plot to solve and highly intriguing characters. Everything worked in grabbing my from the first chapter where the fear was protruding from the villains victim. As the plot opened with a bang there was also the introduction of Logan who was a commanding man and Amanda, a courageous woman battling her inner demons. I was hooked and settled for a thrill ride in the romantic suspense from Lena Diaz. However, after that strong opening the story gradually faded for me in to a blend of niggles, irritation and a weakening presence from the villain. It even lead to a few moments where I had difficulties continuing reading and all in all it took me three weeks to finish this story. I think this was a huge indicator that Logan, Amanda and the plot failed to keep me invested. Amanda Stockton is a survivor of a serial killer and ever since she’s ruled by her need for safety. She lives almost like a hermit, works at home and barely has a social life. Her personality was a combination of courage and terror. I think the author really did a good job of portraying her as a victim getting her life back after a horrendous ordeal. Amanda is likable in her personality, understandable in her fears and shows backbone in various decisions. I feel her characterization was the strongest in this story.Then you have Logan; the smart, dependable yet commanding, sexy police chief. He is the blue print of a romance hero whom made me look forward to the electrifying attraction simmering between him and Amanda. He was very focused and charming to begin with but as the story continued he morphed in to this man who wallowed in his guilt and responsibility. I call it the ‘woulda-coulda-shoulda-syndrome’. At the start of the story the situation was explained why there was guilt but gradually the emphasis on this emotion was too much for me to bear. I love a flawed hero but I also want to see the progress and I didn’t really get that with Logan. In this case I wanted to slap Logan across the face telling him to grow a pair. The romance was one with the ‘forbidden fruit’ theme. Amanda is a victim in Logan’s active case and it became a push-pull between his ethics and his warm-blooded nature. Because it took me so long to read this story I never got that love vibe. Attraction simmering just beneath the surface ready to ignite, definitely! Yet this did not evolve in to a romance, the love was “just there” at a certain point between Logan and Amanda. I must admit, this might be due to the long intervals between continuing this story that I didn’t pick up on it. As the author drives home in plot and romance there was an emotion rife moment which got nipped in the butt again by the wallowing of Logan. He was in a frame of mind that it was best to let her go and then a page later it was; ”Perhaps she really does love me?” That’s when I was so done with him.In those initial chapters the mystery began with a murder and the villains point of view. I was fascinated and I wanted more. I love the unforgivable villain whom I could love to hate and it had all the signs but then the plot got beaten to death with dialogues, police procedures and more dialogues where they wondered whodunit. Besides the ending there was very little action which could’ve infused the plot with chills and thrills, keeping me more invested in the outcome.So there you have it; characters who had their good and bad personality traits and shared beautiful or hot moments but just couldn’t completely pull me in to their story. A romance which only sizzled on occasion and a plot that fizzled after an exciting beginning. Add a three week period of picking up this book, reading a few chapters and then still failing to grab me… Well, the sum of all the components told me one thing; I truly struggled with Lena Diaz’s He Kills Me, He Kills me not.

  • Scooper Speaks
    2019-04-14 14:57

    I'd give it a 3.5 My review sounds like it’s contradicting itself. I focused on the few things that stuck with me after I finished the book. I thought about changing the review, but in the end decided to keep what I had written.I watch a lot of crime drama on tv and it effects my thinking process when I read. I tend to make connections. Just because I see things that I’ve seen before doesn’t mean I don’t want more. I guess that’s why I watch NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, CSI (all of them)…and so on. lol Some weeks the episodes are so similar I wonder if they’re spying on each other. But it never stops me from going back the next week. I applied that same mentality to my review of He Kills Me, He Kills Me NotI did enjoy the book. I didn’t put it down and walk away for days or decide after a few pages in to read a different book. I read HKMHKMN from cover to cover. Maybe I should have focused more on the things that I liked, however, I wanted to point out the things that stuck with me after I finished reading it to give a bigger picture than strictly info backing my enjoyment of the book. I’ll have to rethink my process so I incorporate more proof of my enjoyment before I go into other things, though.Favorite Lines: “The sweet music of her screams echoed in his mind as he inhaled the lavender-scented shampoo he’d selected for her.” (p. 5)I really enjoyed He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not. It’s a bloody good romantic suspense revolving around two guilt ridden people who deserve happiness. It is also Lena Diaz’s debut book. If it’s a sign of what’s to come, I’ll be pleased to read more from her.After surviving a brutal murder attempt, Amanda retreated from the world, changed her last name and attempted to lead a normal, but extremely secure life. Logan made a rookie mistake as a kid and has been waiting years for the boot to fall and display the effects of that mistake.He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not reminds me of Kiss the Girls. If I’d never have seen the movie and if I weren’t such a fan of Criminal Minds, I could have been surprised with the way the story worked out. As it is, the first clue given on page 5 told me everything I needed to know about the killer. It is an obvious, in your face clue and points to the most important lesson of the story: always follow your instincts.The lesson is one that Logan should have learned after his rookie mistake. I think he did learn it, but damn the poor man can’t frick’n win. Add Amanda to that same can’t win category. The poor woman is estranged from her only living relative and is scarred both inside and out. She retreated from society and unfortunately cannot trust her instincts. There are several instances when she reacts out of fear, some of them are justified but other times it’s straight up fear of the unknown.On to the romance. I didn’t get the instant attraction or romance. Don’t get me wrong. I think the hero and the heroine are worthy of love and that the best place to find that love is with one another. However, I’m glad the hero and heroine are slow to enter into a relationship. Diaz takes into consideration the heroine’s traumatic past and eases her into life and a relationship with Logan. Like I said, I don’t get it but it works.In the end, I’m happy to have read He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not. It took me out of reality to a world where a killer could come from anywhere and stab me. Yep, it yanked me right in. Despite knowing who the killer was early in the story, I enjoyed watching it unfold. I never knew what was going to happen and I appreciated that.Scooper Speaks

  • Nicole
    2019-04-03 16:43

    Review originally posted here: Avon ImpulsePublish Date: Out NowHow I got this book: NetGalleyThey say to never judge a book by its cover, and that statement couldn’t be more true with this. I haven’t been impressed with any of the Avon Impulse covers, but at the same time, I was extremely pleased with this story.Amanda lives her life in fear. After escaping from a serial killer years before, she has been living a shadowed life. When a murder with the same M.O. happens in her small town the guilt builds and builds until she wants to do everything she can to help find the murderer. With the help of the Police Chief Logan she starts to live life.Logan is running from his past, and thinks the only way he can redeem himself is to come back to his hometown and try and solve a case that he made a small mistake on years past. When a serial killer comes to town and he starts falling for the only eye witness, things start heating up. With Amanda’s life in danger, Logan’s growing feelings, and virtually no leads, the case twists and turns. When the smoke clears and all is said and done, will Logan and Amanda be left alive for a chance at life?I am so glad that I requested this book. I’ve been on a big romantic suspense kick lately, and this one kept me guessing at each and every turn. The suspect was a secret that was well kept and figured out little by little. I liked that constant not knowing and wondering who the killer really was. It kept the story moving and kept me completely engaged.Amanda and Logan were two great characters. They were both living their lives with varying levels of guilt and fear. Amanda dealing with the trauma of her previous capture by a serial killer as well as the guilt over her friend dying while she got away. Logan was living with the guilt of letting a perp get away back when he was a rookie, and was barely able to forgive himself for his mistake. When that mistake comes back and rears it’s ugly head, showing up in connection to the killer after Amanda, that guilt and self-loathing jumps to a whole new level. Together they had a ton of issues, but every time they were together they brought out the best in one another, and I really liked that about their relationship.I really enjoy the secondary characters as well. Pierce, the FBI Agent who has been tracking the serial killer for years was a favorite of mine, and I sincerely hope that Diaz has the chance to write his story – let us know what was going on with him and Logan’s sister. I also loved the female officer Karen, and almost cried when she gets wrapped up in the violence of the serial killer.While the mystery and suspense of who the killer was, who the next victim would be, and the killer’s motive kept me at the edge of my seat, it did at times feel like it was moving a little slow. Some of the down time between Logan and Amanda felt as if it could have been shortened a bit, but it wasn’t drastic enough to keep me from turning the page quickly.All in all this romantic suspense from Avon Impulse was a great read. The characters were fun and real and honest. The plot twists and turns kept me wanting more and more. The romance was sweet and slow building and despite some huge communication issues, ended perfectly.I give He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not a B+

  • Pamela
    2019-04-08 13:39

    This book had a terrific story which included a twister seriel killer. Too bad the story surrounding it wasn't all that well developed. Even the characters came across as boring and stupid.It started off with a bang, the discovery of a young college student brutalized by a killer who leaves a single rose on her body. Instead of concentrating more on the actual killer, the story revolves mostly on Amanda, the only survivor of the killer from years earlier, and her relationship with the Chief of Police (Logan). As the police try to figure out who the killer is with their many meetings, we're just given page after page of the so-called romance between Amanda and Logan - I didn't feel the heat or chemistry between the two; Amanda trying to deal with what happened to her; and Logan's guilt from a past mistake, all of which goes on and on. It's so typical and mundane. I'm so sick of reading about a scarred woman who ends up being protected by the leading man - most cases a police officer - in HIS OWN HOME. Is there no place the police department can afford to protect someone?? By the way, I still can't figure out why Amanda felt so guilty about surviving while her friend didn't. The way it's written it sounds like there was something more to it when there's not. And seriously, why would a victim not relay every detail -no matter how horrible or embarrassing - to a police officer in order to help them catch the killer? She says she wants to help, but is unable to divulge everything that happened to her to Logan. Right, that makes sense. We're never privy to any thoughts or emotions from the killer's point of view which would have made it a lot more intriguing. And seriously folks, it wasn't that hard to figure out who the killer was which I did in the first few chapters alone. Talk about shoddy work by the police and FBI - more like half-assed. I definitely did not find this novel suspenseful. As for the ending, all I can say is "give me a break."